How sad is it when someone you thought you loved is no one close to the person you thought they were? How sad is it when you realize that what you thought you wanted is actually something you don’t want at all? I used to tiptoe right behind him, standing in his shadow just so I could be in his life, but now…I’m sprinting in the opposite direction as fast I can but he’s aggressively trying to overtake me. I’m scared and I shouldn’t be. Been praying about this for the past few days…for myself and him as well. I hope this dies down soon. So much for being good friends. Why are boys so stupid? Why can’t they keep their damn hormones in check? I ain’t no booty call, dammit.
The truth is…I’m happy. I’ve never been happier and I don’t need him anymore. My happiness no longer comes from his approval or affection. And it’s with this epiphany that I realize that he’s a complicated piece of work that I could do without. How did everyone but me see this coming?! :’(
BRO FUCKING MANCE!!!!